I understand that because I’m in a similar position. I only remember my wedding being sad because my father collapsed from a cerebral hemorrhage a week before my wedding and was in intensive care. I’m having a baby now, but… At that time, I was so depressed and sad that this would happen to my family. But now, my father works out a lot. My family is determined and we’re working hard on our lives. Please find your own happiness and that happiness will be the happiness of your family soon! Cheer up!